[who i admire]

so i know this girl...

she is such an amazing example to me and i hope she knows that. I can talk to her about anything! she makes me want to be better each day!

she is the strongest person i know.
she does not hold grudges against anyone.
she lives her life to the fullest and has no regrets.
when she falls she gets back up again.
she does not show it when she is mad.
she is fun and uplifting to be around.
she has her priorities straight.

i honestly don't know what i would do without her! I would not be the person i am today without her in my life!

you are the sweetest thing and i look up to you so much! don't ever change!!

love ya girl! :)

[Drill]

Tryouts are finally over!!!! Yes that means we have our team 2011-2012 Cavettes!! I am so excited to be back to my busy schedule!

Everything went they way i was hoping for! The tryout dance was super cute and just perfect! (besides the part where i get in the car and the only song on the radio is our tryout song)

I just have a good feeling about this year!

There is one thing that is holding me back and i don't know why! ...

this morning the 2nd year and older girls, we woke up all of the new girls and brought them to my house for breakfast! I noticed that the new girls did not talk... this is a major issue! I know that we just barley met each other but honestly i am a little nervous for this. I just loved last years team that i don't know how i m going to make it through the year without Kilee, Brinley, and Brianne. I will love my new team so much, but it is not the same. i can tell that our team this year might end up having some clique issues and i will try my best to not let that happen!

I just want to place at competitions. It is hard starting off with a new coach. its like starting drill all over again for the first time. but i think i will end up loving McCall! i just hope the best for my team this year!

im just a little worried. but i am super excited to get back into routine again! :)

[Driving]

Remember when you were 15 and how excited you were to get your drivers license?! i was counting down the days ever since i turned 15! Driving was exactly what i was hoping it to be, and more! Driving with all the windows down, getting to be in total control of the radio, Not having to wait for your mom to take you places, being able to drive to your friends house whenever you want, and much more!

the best thing about driving is going to drive up windows by yourself and ordering food. i went to Sonic the other day and i ordered the best of all, medium strawberry lime-aid! the guy at the drive up window was flirting with me super bad. and when he gives me my drink, he told me that he gave me a large instead of a medium all on him! he then gave me a huge smile. i said thanks and drove away. now think about the story if my mom was driving me. yeah that's right, we would have not got the large! this is the advantage of driving! guys at the drive up window hit on you!

the bad part about driving is going to the bank by yourself. when my mom is in the car with me, she tells me what to say to the bankers and tells me what to write on the deposit slips. Well i had to put some money into my account, of course i was by myself this time, and i did everything perfect... until i drove away. i forgot to put the tube back in the slot and i drove away with the tube! i got half way home and i noticed that the tube was on the seat next to me. so i turned around (even though i did not want to) and i went back to the bank. i jumped out of my car and took it to the person that was at the station i was in before. He did not know what to do because there was no tube there. he laughed as i handed it to him and apologized for being so air headed. i felt so dumb. i know that this would not have happened if my mom was in the car with me.

its just so nice to be able to take myself places! i know that i will get sick of driving later on in life, but as of now... i absolutely love it!

[Remember when...]

• you did not have to do your hair and you did not care if it just hung in your face


• you did not have to take a whole hour on picking your outfit for the next day and just throwing something random on.


• you thought boys had cooties and you wanted nothing to do with them


• you would play dress ups and barbies with your friends


• you could wake up 10 min before school started and not care about getting ready


• you put on make up for fun


• you and your friends did crazy things and did not care to look stupid


• you would cry when your mom told you it was time to take a nap


• you would take a tin lunch box to school

being a little girl was simply wonderful! it was like you lived in a different world! you did not care about what you looked like or how people think about you. isnt it funny how that changes once you hit Jr. High and even High School. You are only a kid once... i can honestly say that i kind of miss that! but... being a teenager... well thats a different story!

[Bro]

i love seeing the temple in the background of this picture!

Can a little sister be anymore lucky?! I think not! Kyle and I have sort of a love hate relationship... most of the time we get along super good!! I love being able to know that if i ever need anything, i can ask him and he will help me out!

We are in High School together and i cannot ask for anything better than that! He is so fun to be around! He will let me sluff school with him and he will take me places during lunch! It will be super weird next year when i have to suffer through school alone.

Even though sometimes he messes up my hair after get finished doing it, makes me curl his mullet, and tackles me to the ground each day... i honestly can say that when he leaves to go on his mission this year, i will miss it! Even though it bugs me when he does stuff like that, i will have a hard time not having that for 2 years! But the cool thing about him being gone for two years is that we will both start our sophmore collage year together when he gets back! That... i cannot wait for!

He is also super protective of me! He has this list of boys to stay away from and if he finds out that i was talking to this kid... he will go beat him up! It is nice to know that someone is watching out for me!

I also love going to his baseball games! He is an insane pitcher (you would know if you have gone to almost every single game he has played in his whole life). This year he has gotten two MVP shirts from his coaches because he was the winner of the game!! What a great kid!

Can i add... im glad that i am not the oldest kid in the family, i give him props for putting up with being the Ginny pig for my parents!

[Easter]

It is NOT Easter until you get a present so great that you just want to kiss it!

It is NOT Easter until dad attempts to BBQ the dog! :)

It is NOT Easter until we check out the beginning of our candy fest!

It is NOT Easter until you are so surprised of what is in your basket!

My family... what can i say. Every Holiday is different and you never know what we are going to do next! :)

Easter is one of the best Holidays! its more of a chill holiday where you can just sit down and enjoy yourself and others around you!

The Easter Bunny hides our baskets every year. Kara found my basket and basically told me where it was (its not like i was looking anyway, i was enjoying all the candy in the kitchen). Kyle did not look very hard either... he found his basket in his truck the next day!

Thinking about it... without family, life would be super boring! my family definitely keeps me on my toes!!

[Cavettes back]

so...

this morning we met our new coach. i am so happy that we were actually able to get a coach before the summer! but drill just wont be the same.
i am gonna need to get used to this coach. cause she sure is not amber! but what can i do... just move on i guess!
im just glad that we have someone to coach us. and i would be nothing if i did not have drill in my high school life.

Coach McCall is her name.

• she is super young and cute


• does not have kids (so can be comitted even more)


• her team she coached last year took 1st in Nationals


• she has danced her whole life


• i heard she is a fireball (that is what we need)


• the principal seems to like her


• she wants to win!

well as of now that is all i can pick out. i hope she will turn out amazing! i want to take state this year!!!!! im just having a hard time (still) realizing that my coach/best friend, is gone and is not coming back. i just need to move on (even though i can't get myself to)

this year might be difficult getting used to. it is hard to be on your 2nd year and starting the program all over again. yes it is a big pain. but it will pay off... i hope!

i just hope that i did not loose amber forever. i still want her to text me like she always did. i still want her to call me and babysit evey weekend like she always did. i want her to see how much i am improving like she always saw. i want to hear her advice and "motivational speaches" like we heard every day that i never payed attention to.

but its gone now... and we need to move on and kill it this year!

here we go girls. lets do this and give her a chance! she could end up making us something out of this world!

[some pics]

Well if you want to know what i have been up to this spring break... this should explain it! :)

[Rain]

Life is full of beauty.
Notice it.
Smell the rain,
and feel the wind.
Live your life to the fullest potential,
and fight for your dreams.
No person has the right to rain on your dreams!

[my break]

My break has been fun
my break has been crazy
my break has been filled with awesome memories

but...

my break can be depressing
my break can be full of sadness
my break has been filled with worries

what...

All spring break i have been thinking about you
i want to help all that i can but i don't know if i am able to

you have made me worried to the point where i can't sleep at night
each time i think about you my heart brakes into two


how can i help?
you are hurting yourself
this can't be real
i need you!
many people love you


what you are doing is completely stupid and i want you to stop!
do it for me.
do it for yourself.

im here for you! :)

[You Know You Are On Drill Team IF...]

Your lucky number is your tryout number

You find yourself walking in the hallway in step with the people in front of you... left, left, left

you are walking to your next class and somehow you end up in the dance room

you come home from practice every day and end up waking up on the couch 2 hrs later

you get a bloody nose after performing Kick Routine

After performing your mouth hurts because of the big smile you had

You walk up with a random bruise on your body

You notice that one week each month is not a fun week to be around the team

Your head starts peeling from practicing those headstands all day

You go to grab a drink and your water bottle is already empty

Your sitting in class and you catch yourself counting through Hip Hop

You go to bed listening to Dane Routine on your iPod

You find yourself looking up motivational quotes every day

You want to start doing your team cheer after you hear any prayer

You are at a school dance and while you are dancing you keep saying YA, TUH, WOW

You want to go punch a wall after performing Military Routine

You look in your drill bag and you have 5 other girls shirts

You never wear your own clothes

This is dedicated to American Fork Cavettes Drill Team 2010-2011

[everyday is a new page in the book]

Wow honestly can life get anymore stressful... the answer is yes. Everything in my life right now just hit me like a brick and to make it worse, it hit me all at once. But this is life, things get hard just to get better. the stress sucks but once its gone you feel like a new person!

[School]
Can i just say that High School is nothing like i expected it to be. I think teachers are out to get us. I noticed that when i have a test in one class, i have a test that same day in all of my other classes. So all day long i am taking tests. And to make it worse, its all on the last day of the term (why do teachers do that, i have no clue). So if you fail your test, there is nothing you can do about it. I like to stress over things that don't need to be stressed over, which makes it worse for me because when that happens i go into panic mode and that is definitely not fun! But i love the feeling of starting a new term. it gives me a chance so start all over again!

[Drill]
So as some of you know, my drill coach quit and this is the very first time in my life where my heart was completely torn. Drill was my everything. I loved dancing with my team and when i would dance, i would forget about all of my struggles i'm having and i can just dance out the anger and stress. It was such a reliever for me! Even though drill was so hard and i thought i was about to die, i still miss it SO much!
My team... i don't even know where to start. I would be absolute nothing without them in my life! They are amazing girls and they helped my High School year to be fun! They helped me when i needed help the most and when i was having a "bad" day, they would cheer me up. They are the best friends that i can ever have. We have gone through so much together and i appreciate them for staying together after all of the drama we have had.

My Coaches Amber and Nicole are simply amazing! They have taught me how to fight my own fights and so much more things about life. they have taught me how to succeed and they showed me that i am the boss of my own actions and i get to make decisions on my own! I will miss them so very much. If any of you are wondering why they quit... they left by force. Or principal is hard headed along with my coaches. So their personalities clashed big time. Amber wanted more power than the principal wanted to give her. So basically the principal ruined the lives of 15 girls...

But luckily our school is looking for a new coach and i am so excited because i NEED drill in my life and i would be nothing without it. So girls, lets pull it together, leave the past behind and make next year a wonderful year!!!

[Friends]
You know how girls are. Girls over think everything and some girls try to hard to fit in. i think girls like to get into fights... i personally don't do that but some girls do. i hope i am not that kind of girl. This is how i learned how to forget and forgive. when i am mad at someone i usually don't confront them. i like to get over things by myself. sometimes it is nice to let the girl know you are mad but don't pull a grudge. it just makes things worse. yeah maybe i wont talk to them or text them back but like i used to but ill still be nice. and once that happens i get over it and everything just goes back to normal. "Peoples words don't affect you as long as you don't let them." just get over it.

[Boys]
where can i start... boys are great, don't get me wrong but i think boys are the number one cause of drama. it over works everyone! it makes me feel bad when you have a really good friend and once she gets a boy that is the only person she will talk to. it makes me feel like the second choice. am i really not good enough for you? common we are in high school, have fun! i especially hate it when you like a guy and your friends want you to be obsessed... that's funny and not gonna work! that's not how i roll. honestly that makes me not want to like him because you make me look like a retard. boys...


But after thinking of all of the hard things that are going down in my life right now, its just gonna get better from here. High School and life are not gonna be easy... we need a little challenge. that is how we grow as a person. but when you have too many things going on at once, life really sucks! we will only get better from here!

[Quotes that help me get through]

“Life is like an ocean. It can be calm and still or rough and rigid. But in the end it’s always beautiful.”

“Life is like a mirror, if you frown at it, it frowns back. If you smile, it returns the greeting.”

“If you want to fly, you have to give up the things that weigh you down.”

“Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.”

[The Crew]

Wow what a crazy family i have! Thanks to stephanie mcbride for the awesome photo shoot! i think this is one of the last family pictures we have before kyle goes out on his mission!

[Look What I Found]

I was going through some pictures and i ended up coming across tons of pictures of me when i was just a little girl! it's always so fun to look at yourself and remember what you looked like as a youngling! I let out a few laughs and smiled as i went through each picture. This should give you a little taste of what i looked like as a little munchkin! :)

After looking at some fun pictures and memories of my life i started thinking about all of the fun things i have done! I remember trying to dig to china with kyle in our backyard, playing with my imaginary friend "Hedda", flushing a lightbulb down the toilet with kyle (thinking that a genie would come and give us 3 wishes), and catching huge butterflies in the garden. I love looking back at my childhood, I always get a few laughs remembering all of the crazy stuff i did!

[Cavettes 2010-2011]

My team has gotten me through this year. If i did not have them in my life, my high school year would have sucked! I have so many memories with them that i will never forget! They are my best friends and i could go to them for anything and i know they will help me. These girls are amazing! I actually see them more than i see my own family. I feel so close to them that they are honestly my sisters. i love my cavettes!

[Drill]

What would i be without drill? i would be nothing!

As i think about drill... once it is over... i realize how much i grew as a person through the year. But now once drill is gone and over, i miss it so much and i would give ANYTHING to get it back. I would not be the person i am today without being on cavettes drill team 2010-2011. My team is amazing and the experiences i had were wonderful! I learned how to be a hard worker and i was on top of things when we had practices. But once its done and over, i am so lazy and its hard for me to get things done. it was the ONLY thing that got me through high school!

[Fun Photo Shoot]

[Best Friends]

Melanie is on the High School Drill Team with me and i enjoy every minute of it! We have gone through so much togither! I have so many memories with this girl its insane! You know when you have a friend and you have been friends for so long that you don't even know how you became friends? yeah well that is how me and melanie are! I love you girl!

[Dog Jumping]

Personal best of 21.4 ft (measuring from the dock to butt) at his first competition at Soldier Hollow. He was classified in the Professional category on his first competitive jump! this video is kyle throwing the stick. watch were he lands its great! he did so good!!! can't wait for FINALS on MONDAY! after he jumped the announcer said: welcome to the finals!!!

[my dog]

Rex jumps in a nearby canal and we always thought that he can jump really good. so just for fun, we entered him into a dog jumping competition with Splash Dogs up in Heber. Kyle jumped him in the Adult devision and I jumped him in the Jr. devision. I got rex to jump 21.4 ft. while dogs that have been jumping for many years that got 16 ft. Rex has only been doing this since July (3 months) if a dog can hit 20 ft he is in the Pro devision. so me and kyle are pro dog handlers!!! funny right? once rex jumped off of the dock, the announcer said... Welcome to the FINALS!!! haha the crowd went crazy! he took 4th place with kyle and 2nd place with me! so now we get to go back on Monday and go against the top 24 dogs!!! I am so excited!