[everyday is a new page in the book]

Wow honestly can life get anymore stressful... the answer is yes. Everything in my life right now just hit me like a brick and to make it worse, it hit me all at once. But this is life, things get hard just to get better. the stress sucks but once its gone you feel like a new person!

[School]
Can i just say that High School is nothing like i expected it to be. I think teachers are out to get us. I noticed that when i have a test in one class, i have a test that same day in all of my other classes. So all day long i am taking tests. And to make it worse, its all on the last day of the term (why do teachers do that, i have no clue). So if you fail your test, there is nothing you can do about it. I like to stress over things that don't need to be stressed over, which makes it worse for me because when that happens i go into panic mode and that is definitely not fun! But i love the feeling of starting a new term. it gives me a chance so start all over again!

[Drill]
So as some of you know, my drill coach quit and this is the very first time in my life where my heart was completely torn. Drill was my everything. I loved dancing with my team and when i would dance, i would forget about all of my struggles i'm having and i can just dance out the anger and stress. It was such a reliever for me! Even though drill was so hard and i thought i was about to die, i still miss it SO much!
My team... i don't even know where to start. I would be absolute nothing without them in my life! They are amazing girls and they helped my High School year to be fun! They helped me when i needed help the most and when i was having a "bad" day, they would cheer me up. They are the best friends that i can ever have. We have gone through so much together and i appreciate them for staying together after all of the drama we have had.

My Coaches Amber and Nicole are simply amazing! They have taught me how to fight my own fights and so much more things about life. they have taught me how to succeed and they showed me that i am the boss of my own actions and i get to make decisions on my own! I will miss them so very much. If any of you are wondering why they quit... they left by force. Or principal is hard headed along with my coaches. So their personalities clashed big time. Amber wanted more power than the principal wanted to give her. So basically the principal ruined the lives of 15 girls...

But luckily our school is looking for a new coach and i am so excited because i NEED drill in my life and i would be nothing without it. So girls, lets pull it together, leave the past behind and make next year a wonderful year!!!

[Friends]
You know how girls are. Girls over think everything and some girls try to hard to fit in. i think girls like to get into fights... i personally don't do that but some girls do. i hope i am not that kind of girl. This is how i learned how to forget and forgive. when i am mad at someone i usually don't confront them. i like to get over things by myself. sometimes it is nice to let the girl know you are mad but don't pull a grudge. it just makes things worse. yeah maybe i wont talk to them or text them back but like i used to but ill still be nice. and once that happens i get over it and everything just goes back to normal. "Peoples words don't affect you as long as you don't let them." just get over it.

[Boys]
where can i start... boys are great, don't get me wrong but i think boys are the number one cause of drama. it over works everyone! it makes me feel bad when you have a really good friend and once she gets a boy that is the only person she will talk to. it makes me feel like the second choice. am i really not good enough for you? common we are in high school, have fun! i especially hate it when you like a guy and your friends want you to be obsessed... that's funny and not gonna work! that's not how i roll. honestly that makes me not want to like him because you make me look like a retard. boys...


But after thinking of all of the hard things that are going down in my life right now, its just gonna get better from here. High School and life are not gonna be easy... we need a little challenge. that is how we grow as a person. but when you have too many things going on at once, life really sucks! we will only get better from here!

[Quotes that help me get through]

“Life is like an ocean. It can be calm and still or rough and rigid. But in the end it’s always beautiful.”

“Life is like a mirror, if you frown at it, it frowns back. If you smile, it returns the greeting.”

“If you want to fly, you have to give up the things that weigh you down.”

“Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.”